Maze-ing Maze 363
Maze 363 : After a few weeks resting up I’m going to get back into my daily work on my art. It’s all I feel I have left. During the past few weeks I realize I can’t seem to let go of my anger and bad feelings. As much as I’m trying to keep things positive and moving forward I struggle. I’m disappointed and angry with my family as they have no time for anything but their problems. I’ve tried to extend an olive branch hoping to improve things and it worked. But nobody asks and listens for the answer to how f**ked up my life is right now. Instead I gotta be a f**king counserlor. I have to help people find a reason to live when at times its hard to find my own reasons.
As I sit in hell (its been 100+ degrees the past few days) and the rest of the state burns down (I’m from Colo Springs and went to school at CSU in Fort Collins) I can’t help but find the irony that everywhere I’ve truly lived is on fire. Where I was born and raised is threatened by flames. Then I moved to Fort Collins and fire has threatened many areas that I used to travel during my years there. And Denver is just hot. I feel like my life to is a burning wildfire and arson is definitely the cause with 0% containment. For the first time in my life I really need a person in my life to talk to and lean on and nobody has time, nobody cares or even asks how its going. I chose the quote because I’m looking to be as honest with myself about possible reasons why nobody seems to be slightly interested in my welfare. I can’t figure out why. I honestly can say that I haven’t been that bad of a family member to be treated like this. On the bright side I woke up this morning giving me the opportunity to experience, appreciate, and make right my life. Regardless of my situation I choose to be positive and keep my head. Don’t forget to visit www.mazeingpuzzles.wordpress.com to see puzzles from Warren Stokes.
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New growth comes after a fire. I do not have house insurance. The new A/C I bought has funky wiring, from another country. If I plug it in it may cause a fire or electrocution. I hope you still have a home. My sister moved to CO. I’m praying for ya. “Pray, Hope and Don’t Worry” St Padre Pio said. “Let the Joy of the Lord – Be your strength.” (Neh. 8:10). Hang in there.
I’m thinking about returning this A/C and getting a Fridgidaire from Lowe’s.
I echo Catholic Glasses. Wait upon the Lord, He will sustain you. And here in blogland, there are many who care! 🙂 My brother’s moving to Denver this week for work. We’ve all seen how horrible it is there. Here in the NW people complain we don’t have summer yet. I’ll take this weather anytime. Chin up A “Mazing” blog buddy PS, my daughter LOVES elephants, I will be sharing this with her.
Sorry to hear that things have been so difficult for you. It seems that everyone is self absorbed–it is human nature–and part of our sin nature to be wrapped up in our own concerns. Sometimes though it helps to lay aside our hurts and take time to give a listening ear to someone else and it seems that you have been doing that. Pat yourself on the back for that because it is hard to do when you obviously have a need for others to understand you and where you are coming from. Sometimes when life seems unbearable we need to turn to a God who can bear our burdens for us. I know you believe in “the universe” but there is a God who created the universe and He is the one that cares about you. How do I know? Because He says so in His Word the Bible. Over and over again He tells us how much He loves and cares for us and how He wants to be involved in our lives if we will let Him in.
If your family doesn’t want to talk to you then don’t push it. You have enough on your plate. If you feel they are wanting you to fix their problems, and you can’t, then don’t. Walk away for a while, don’t answer the phone, take care of number one. I think you and your family will benefit from the space. You don’t have to say a word. Just be absent. Take care of yourself. Choose life. Sometimes the best thing to do is walk away.
The maze is great. Keep up the good stuff. Let go of the bad stuff.
Your art is beautiful — very detailed, requiring incredible focus and patience. Be glad you have this gift to pour your heart into.