Maze-ing Maze 317 a tiger with a lion lean?
MaZE-ING mAZE 317
MAze 317: I’ve been avoiding drawing cats (lions and tigers) since before the project started. As I have shared my other African animals I really wanted to capture the beauty of cats with my mazes. Fear of drawing a horrible maze has stopped me no less than 30 times. Today I decided enough is enough of the fear and have challenged myself to step up the final 40+ days and push my comfort zone. No more simple shapes (except the days where I will be pushing the deadline)
Although I don’t like the tiger I love the fact that I tried and finished it and at least it looks similar to a tiger or more like a lion. I realize that I will have to figure out how to express the beauty of the tigers stripes and splotches and still have the maze if I want to pull off the mazes I imagine in my mind.
The choice to push myself even further is because avoidance, fear, bad habits, weak work ethic and procrastination have all been major hurdles to reaching my goals. The past few months I have really been hiding from reality not avoiding the problems that exist in my life. I NEED TO STOP RUNNING! I NEED TO FACE THE WORLD! I have lost my habit of seeking a positive and a good attitude for one of depression and worry.
I’ve noticed after the first 80 mazes how the project became more of a daily habit that I had to do like eating or bathing. At day 317 I now not only have no problems showing up to the pad everyday but have also altered other parts of my life to make it happen.
When I think that it takes on average or no less than 2 hours to draw, write and post my work I’ve spent a significant amount of time this year working on my craft. But now I need to have that same focus on drive for the rest of my life. For my relationships, for my health, for my spirit. When I think about how unhappy I’ve been for months and yet have so much in my life to be happy and appreciative of it makes me angry to think that I’ve wasted so much time. I know it’s not easy to always see the positive and realize how good I have it. But neither is creating a piece of art daily for a year and I’ve kicked that goals ass!
I refuse to be a prisoner to my so called issues, locked in a cage that I have the key to. During the worst year of my life I’ve been shown and created so many beautiful things and now believe that it happened this way to show that life is great no matter whats going on in life.
Two years ago I wrote a book called Every Moment, about taking advantage of every moment we are given the opportunity to experience. I’ve been reading the draft the past few days and have been inspired to change my ways and enjoy all that I have in my life.