Faith overcomes fear F**K your doubts!

Faith overcomes fear F**K your doubts!

Don’t mistake slow progress for failure!  My motto

I recently shared my intervention story with the blog.  Well I explained my family moving without me but I left out that I didn’t have a place.   Homeless! My refusal to work for anyone else cost me my wife.  I also reached out to the subscribers of this blog to see or validate weather I was wasting my time or do I provide something of value.  I felt a $2 charge to see my work with inspiration would work.  After getting 1 subscriber willing to pay $2 I was ready to give up.

However, thanks to my anger with my wife I was given an extra boost and decided to go all out do art/sports camps or die!  And damit I’m not rich and still need a home but significant things have happened in my life.

First and foremost look at the art!!! Damn I’m proud of this peace and the direction my art is starting to take with the addition of color.  Pain sure makes good art!

Second a hospital purchased 30 of my maze books!  So after a decade of rejections by publishers, self publishing has paid off.  I’m officially a published author!!!!!

Third I secured a company Max Muscle to sponsor a cross promotion of  my soccer camp.

Fourth and most important me and my boys woke up this morning!  I get a chance to experience another day, see and hear my kids laugh, create another maze, taste another meal!!! The past few weeks have been tough but I’ve learned to enjoy the moments because so many of them come during the pain/day that if you hold on to them tight enough they will keep you from the drowning tides.

I feel 100% sure that I’m on the “write” path and I refuse to give up to what others think is the correct way for me to go.

 

 

 

 

Maze: This is a print “Flared Out” aka maze 363.  I chose to share this with you because I wanted some art work that shows color and hope.  I’ve had a crazy week.  I had an interview with a local magazine, accepted to two separate online art sites, and partnered with a photographer who is going to shoot all 400+ pieces of my art in exchange for my promoting his photography business.

My wife decided to move on today as well.  Not a surprise I chose to focus on our family, and purpose rather than riches.  Life right now feels as though I jumped out of an airplane with a parachute that has a 50% chance of opening.  And the faster I fall and closer I get to the ground I feel more and more confident that it will open.  But I’m losing all my “equipment” on the way down.

I sometimes wonder how sweet the landing will be if I have nothing left when I land.  But mostly I just can’t wait to hit the ground alive because lets be real any landing survived is one to be celebrated.

I have to thank her for opening my eyes and sharing my journey into fatherhood.    As well as setting me free to travel into my next journey!

Not giving up until I’m Done Maze-ing Maze 51

Maze-ing Maze 51

Maze 51:  Yesterday I scheduled a interview with a writer from 303 Magazine a major culture magazine in Denver that wants to do a profile on me.  I’m excited as the publication reaches a large part of the “art buying” crowd in Denver.  Not to mention the fact that press always helps ones career.  I will share the article once its published.

This is the last maze that I created for the card playing company.

The Intervention: They tried to make me go to Maze rehab but!!!!

Maze-ing Maze 50

 Maze 50:  I was given an “intervention” yesterday.  It was based on my refusal to give up my art.  Not give up so much as get a  ”real job.”   They pointed out how I’ve hurt my family, marriage and struggle to make ends meet.  And ultimately could potentially lose everything if I don’t give up the maze.

I understand them and to a certain extent agree with them.  But my feelings tell me that I’m on the right path.  I feel that I was put here to inspire and motivate people with my writing, coaching and art.  I argued with them because I don’t just sit around drawing mazes waiting for someone to pay me millions to do my art.  I go door to door, make phone calls to businesses, and deliver flyers to make ends admittedly “barely” meet.

However the 6000+ subscribers to this blog, the feedback from the players and parents I coach, and various other projects proves to me that my purpose is being served regardless of the finances.

As my loved ones so painfully stated “The landlord and grocery store don’t except Inspiration as payment ”  This is true.  When I look at this blog I’ve sold a total of one calendar during its duration.  And according to my loved ones who again are correct a calling can pay the bills.  And for the sake of my family and I it needs to or you will lose everything.

The purpose of this post is to see if I’m indeed fooling myself from a financial standpoint.  Starting March first I will have a new blog called Maze-spiration a daily maze and quote with a weekly jigsaw puzzle of my art included on Fridays.  There is a one time subscription fee of $2.

I’m asking everyone who subscribed to support my venture.  But with a catch, I don’t want sympathy support.  I want support based on merit.  Based only if you found inspiration in my art, words, or the maze a day challenge.  One way or the other I would like feedback.  So please fill out the contact form and let me have it.  If you want to subscribe please check subscribe and payment type I will contact you with payment info.  Thanks for your support!

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Maze-ing Maze 50

Maze-ing Maze 50

Maze 50: Yet another design!